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[10 Dec 2008|04:38pm]
Jessie made me want to do this. I liked it.
1. What is your first name? Stacey
2. What is your favorite food? Pasta
3. What high school did you go to? Gabriel Richard
4. What is your favorite color? Green
5. Who is your celebrity crush? Jim Sturgess
6. Favorite drink? Crown and Diet
7. Dream vacation? Paris
8. Favorite dessert? Cheesecake
9. What you want to be when you grow up? Fashion Merchanding
10. What do you love most in life? Shopping
11. One Word to describe you. Unique
12. Your flickr name. Staceyd

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[02 Jan 2007|12:01am]
2006= a shitload of change.
2007= i'm ready for more.
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[27 Oct 2006|06:44pm]
Today starts Halloween weekend. I am going home though, so I'm not going out to parties. I kind of wish I was because I want to dress up. I think I just want an excuse to buy something new and cute.
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[09 Sep 2006|07:35pm]
[ mood | bored ]

i feel like i'm twelve again, i totally updated my color scheme for my EL JAYYYYYY!
n new icon! wow, please tell me that i have no life.

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[07 Sep 2006|07:21pm]
[ mood | shitty ]

well, im in a shitty mood, so why not share my thoughts. ha. this whole college thing is fun, the living by myself, making my own rules, doing what i want--its nice. but i feel as though im the only one not adjusting perfectly into this new place. i feel like everyone has changed except me. im not saying for the good or bad, but everyone just seems-- different. i dont know if its the distance or what, but theres a sense of connection lost or something. i hate feeling like im so far away. dont tell me its going to get better too, because i already hear it enough and i believe it already too, except i am somewhat skeptical of it. i dont understand what's going to change in the next two months that will make everything perfect again. well, my life was never perfect, not even close, but just getting back to how my life was would be really great right now. i need stability in my life, i'm a creature of habit, and i didnt realize until i got here how much i did stick to the same routine or schedule. i eat one of two choices everyday for lunch, what i dont eat at lunch i eat the other for dinner, i alwasy eat at the exact same time, always bring it back up to my dorm, watch tv, then go to my next class, i come home watch gilmore girls on abc family, then finish some homework, go on the computer, and then eventually bed. i'm not lying to you either, that is my daily routine, and i'm sick of it, yet i can't break it. i honestly dont hate it here, but i dont love it either. this is supposed to be a college that im fortunate to be going to, not one that i'll regret going to. i always thought i'd be good at adjusting to new surroundings, like thats what i needed, to get out of michigan which was holding me back. i realized michigan wasn't holding me back, but i was holding myself back, and i still am. i dont know why i can't loosen up and just enjoy everyday, but for some reason i can't. im too much of a logical person who thinks way too much about everything. i dont think i was ever intended just to be a kid, i think i was supposed to be born a grown-up, i swear. and im not saying im too mature, or even more mature than anyone else, but for some reason i can't enjoy the things that kids are supposed to be living for. why can't everyday be like the movies, or t.v, where everyone has fun, if there's a problem its resolved in the 30 minute or 1 hour time limit? why do i complicate and complain about everything? plus i haven't made any real friends that i actually want to spend most of my time with, ive found acquaitances and nothing more. the ones i do call my friends here, i'm already sick of. i can't find anyone worth the light of day. i'm not even setting my sights too high either, i'll take any friends. when i hang out with people too, i'm bored and ready to leave. maybe im depressed right now, actually i probably am. im sorry for sharing these depressing thoughts with you, but you didnt have to read them. it just feels good to finally write all of this out, regardless if anyone reads it.

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[30 Aug 2006|04:42pm]
we dont get snow days here, we get tropical storm days!! yay for no school tomorrow! :)
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[29 Aug 2006|03:16pm]
Well I have a half an hour before my next class, saw this journal, and thought what the heck, i'm up for an update. Well i'm already in south carolina, as most of you know obviously. i moved on july 17th and that was probably the saddest thing of all time. i never cried that much in my life. then we drove the 12 hours, and i saw my new house for the first time, which is really nice and i like it alot. it sucked that the last week before i left i barely hung out with anyone because i was sick in the hospital for three days :(. that sucked. oh yea and getting stuck in my hand w/ an iv needle 8 times wasn't cool either; that was probably one of the dumbest hospitals ive ever been too. they also forgot to give my my antibiotics the first night, making me stay another night, and getting freaking surgery on the third day. but my friends came to visit me and that was super sweet, i love them. so anywyas, i lived in my house on sesqui trail in columbia for about a month before i moved off to college. i moved into college on the 20th, a sunday and that was sad too. i didnt think i'd cry and i did, because christine started bawling and that was really sad to me. i'm actually goign home this weekend to see them all and get more stuff to bring, so that'll be nice, even though its only been a week. hah. my roomates are pretty cool, and my classes are easy. it kinda sucks though because all my roommates are upperclassmen and all friends from last year, so i feel like the forth wheel. i've met a few other people that are pretty cool, but nothing compares to my friends from michigan, i miss you guys. its soo surreal that im in college, and living here. oh and the fact that people keep talking about this damn hurricane coming our way. but hopefully that won't be too bad, at least i have somewhere to go. haha. i need to get a job though, and i think after class today, i'll go apply at some places. i need money, because there are soo many cute shops to shop at, and i need to save my money for tuition. hmmm, anymore news. well my house in michigan still hasn't sold, which sucks. but some black family looked at it and liked it and brought their minister and some members of their congretation to look at it a second time, no joke. they said a prayer in my living rooom together, which i find pretty weird, but hey if they want the house, then its theirs! haha. we already have an offer on the house, but they can't buy it until they sell theirs, so i dont know what that's about. oh and i went to the student mass at school on sunday, and im relaly glad that i did that. i feel like a grown up going to church by myself, but its a lot more rewarding if you go when your'e not forced. i was really proud of myself for going and i think im going to keep going. the church was cute and small and the lil black priest w/ some weird accent was soooo excited that there wre so many people there. it was cute. that's pretty much all i've done while im here. i miss everyone GREATLY and i hope that everyone is having soooo much fun wherever they are. i'm hoping to possible come down toward the beginning of december before christmas so i can see everyone! but im not sure yet. well this was really long, and really boring, but it took up like a little bit of time for me haha. peacccccccce
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[01 Jul 2006|10:47pm]
wow, i havent updated this in about a year.
i leave two weeks from monday. i dont think i'm ready yet, to leave. i've always imagined myself moving away from michigan after high school, but what scares me the most is that i dont even have my family back here. i have nothing really anymore that connects me to living in michigan. i mean, dont get me wrong, i have my friends, i will miss you all dearly and i will come and visit. but, other than staying at friend's house, i dont have a house anymore, here in michigan. the timing of my move also feels like i no longer have a home. my michigan home is not mine, anymore and my new house doesnt even have a room for me. well, a guest room. i know i didnt expect to get my own room, granted im staying away at school, but i wanted to be like 50 years old, be able to come home, and show my kids where my room was, where i grew up. and i'm losing that. i'm losing alot by this move, and i think i've just avoided thinking about it. whenever someone asks me how everything is, and when im leaving, i answer then quickly change the subject. i'm not one to express my emotions easily, and by avoiding talking about it, i've avoided crying about it. for all who know me, i dont cry easily.
i feel like i have a million things to do before i leave, and so many promises to fulfill, but i just dont see it happening. i really need to hang out with a bunch of people before i leave. and i mean it. so if i actually like you, i'm going to make a sincere effort to hang out with you. call me.
lastly, i i just want to talk about how much i'm going to miss the friendships i've made over the years, especially having my best friend gone. i'm going to miss shopping wiht you almost every day, friday pizza nights, and just hanging out. even when i was "finding myself" and was a pretty crappy friend, you were always there for me. i want to appologize for that one year, where i treated you like shit, and avoided you. i'm sorry. but thanks for always being there. i love you so much and im going to miss you time a million. thanks for always being there. jessie, im going to miss you a lot too. although we dont hang out as much as we should, i'm truly going to miss having you around to talk to, sew with, or anything. thanks for always being there too.

so that's it. im finally venting. so if you think you might miss me a little bit, i'll probably miss you too. so let's make something of these last 15 days, and hang out.
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[22 Aug 2005|02:26pm]
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH....an update.
well my schedule anyways

a1- art ind. study
a2- art ind. study
b- hr. precalc
d1- world lit
f-campus ministry
g= AP gov

so um, do we lyke have lyke any1 of thez 2gether?
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[19 Mar 2005|12:22am]
if i was a rich girl, i wouldn't pretend to not be rich and write songs about wanting to be rich.

then i would dance.
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[20 Feb 2005|10:36pm]
[ mood | content ]

i want spring to be here now. i could be like everyone else and write a letter to spring and ask it to come soon, but 'imitation is suicide'. i can't wait till friday, yet i dont' want friday to come. friday, i am going to drop my dad off in south carolina, where i will not see him again until spring break, and after that, i will see him intermitently until summer. i can't wait because after watching these few inches of snow fall, it is presently 70 degrees in south carolina. yea, i said 70 degrees. i got a new cell phone. its okay, not the best, but its a flip phone, which i've wanted.


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[15 Feb 2005|03:49pm]
isn't it ironic that a journal is meant for your personal feelings and ideas, yet many of us are sucked into this internet journal that exploits all our feelings and ideas?
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[28 Jan 2005|09:19pm]
my dad brought home old cameras
i got one.
its sweet
im going to use it in photography
it automatically saves the pictures on to a cd
how sweet is that.
youre jealous
i know
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[23 Jan 2005|09:47pm]
about a week ago jessie was talking abuot how everyone's lj updates have been sad and whatnot. and also the sadness of stuff i told her. so i being such a good friend promised to write a happy update.

there once was a pink poodle named oodle.
she lived on big fluffy clouds and ate noooooodle. <--------------------------------------------------hahah thats for nat
she liked cotton candy
and everything she said ended in "thats just dandy"
i all know you wish you had a friend like oodle.
you could stay up all nights just to doodle.
it would probably be hard since she only has paws.
and it was also be the funniest thing you ever saw.
this story had no intention of being a poem.
and the only word that rhymes with poem is jeroboam.
which has nothing to do with the story
but nothing to do with being gory
it is a bottle of wine
something oodle would not find fine
because wine is just meant for church
trust me i did research
i can't believe you just wasted your time
reading this poem of mine.
im sorry to bore you and embarass myself,
you prolly would rather be watching ELF
i keep going, because i dont know how to end
this story that never should've started but its for a friend
so i might as well end now with some dignity
because going where its going is not very pretty.
so this is for you jessie
to my best friend bessie!

hows that for a 5 minute happy poem.
dont worry..never again will i do that. but maybe, just maybe a little smirk or half a grim came out because of that. i know i've needed a smile that last few days with what has been going on an what not. and for everything jessies done for me the last week and plus, i owed her big time, and if she wanted to read something happy, this had to be it. i tried.

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[16 Jan 2005|10:36am]
scratch the idea of going to college in new york or chicago.
i guess im looking at colleges around south carolina.
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[15 Jan 2005|10:00pm]
im in such a mixed up mood. im extremely sad and im a lil happy, and very curious.

i want to meet church boy.
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[11 Jan 2005|10:02am]
today was a snow day. i did NOT want this snow day. Sure i want to sleep in and such and not go to school. but finals are tomorrow and i have yet to review for them in any of my classes. today was supposed to be jeopardy in crisis so i could get like 20 points and find out basically all the questions on the test. dang. ugh i hate finals.
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[10 Jan 2005|11:44pm]
i changed the colors of my layout finally. since christmas season is OFFICial over, as of last sunday. but same layout, different colors
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[09 Jan 2005|08:31pm]
my dad keeps telling me that im depressed.
i realized that the only time my dad sees me is when im home.
and being at home makes me depressed.
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[07 Jan 2005|11:35pm]
you're faker than the plastic barbie dolls in my basement
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